So, I realized something about myself that I'm not to proud of. In fact, I can not believe I'm sharing it. I realized that what I need from my partner is completely selfish and mean. In the metaphors that are my life, this is the oddest one. What I need from my partner is for him to let me be a kite and soar high in the air and him to be the one always holding the string. Not only do I need him to hold the string, I need him to be happy about it and through any storm NEVER let me fall.
How fucked up is that?!!??!? How is that remotely fair to anyone? I know it is wrong and that is still what I want. So confusing. Really, I get to fly carefree up in the sky while he is left deal with all the problems. I suck!
P.S. Also, I want to be taken to Comic-Con 2011. It breaks my heart to read the updates and see the pictures. *crying not so much on the inside*
Tuesday, July 27, 2010
Wednesday, June 30, 2010
Is it hot in July?
I'm wondering how many other 33 year old married, mother's of 3 go to Warped Tour concerts. I'm not talking about the mom that accompanies their teenage or preteen children. I mean the grown women (or men for that matter) that are super stoked to see the all the bands and have dreamed of this event. In fact, when my 15 year old asked if she could tag along I adamantly replied "NO!" I told her she wasn't hardcore enough for this concert.
I will be traveling over 4 hours to go to the concert, even further south. I expect the July heat to be oppressive. In all likelihood, I will even feel extremely old in comparison to the rest of the crowd. I haven't let this damper my spirit one iota.
In the past, I let many things keep me from this concert tour. Finances, my physical size, my health, my perception of my families inability to survive without me, and dozens of other reasons. But now over 100 lbs down and with a determination to fulfill this dream, I am full steam ahead.
I may pass out from heat exhaustion, but so could any young person. I may be hurt by the crowd, but so could anyone else. I doubt many others in attendance will appreciate the experience as much as I will.
I will be traveling over 4 hours to go to the concert, even further south. I expect the July heat to be oppressive. In all likelihood, I will even feel extremely old in comparison to the rest of the crowd. I haven't let this damper my spirit one iota.
In the past, I let many things keep me from this concert tour. Finances, my physical size, my health, my perception of my families inability to survive without me, and dozens of other reasons. But now over 100 lbs down and with a determination to fulfill this dream, I am full steam ahead.
I may pass out from heat exhaustion, but so could any young person. I may be hurt by the crowd, but so could anyone else. I doubt many others in attendance will appreciate the experience as much as I will.
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